Love

Sometimes when I find my thoughts jumbled and feel like my head is in the clouds it takes me a few days to figure out why. If you know me you know I start each and every day during the week stalking and reading all of my favorite design, lifestyle and friend blogs. I am a blog addict and I am the first to admit it. There are so many amazing life stories out there and because of the internet I have been able to share in complete strangers’ lives. There is one blog I read about a woman, a mother of 5, a wife, who was in a plane crash with her husband years ago and was burned over 80% of her body. Her story is amazing, her life is still beautiful despite everything and she inspires me. There is another blog of a young 20-year old couple who lost their first child, a daughter, to an accidental drowning at 18 months. Since they have welcomed a son and now pregnant with twins. 

Some may find these stories sad and may question why the heck I would continue to read. But I can’t stop. It puts me in my place some days. It makes me feel grateful for what I have. It reminds me how quick life can change. It reminds me that no matter what life will always go on. It teaches me the strength that we all have in us. It reminds me to try to love deeper. It reminds me that our quick tempered munchkin is a gift and to hug her tighter, to cherish our moments. It reminds me that I can’t do things alone, no matter how hard I want to do everything by myself. It reminds me that this is my life, that years down the road Eric, me and Raegan (& Keags too), that is my family. The way we live our life, the way we react to life, that will always impact Raegan. That I need to stop getting caught up in having everything perfect. Who cares if there is a stain on Raegan’s brand new dress, who cares if we are 5 minutes late to swim lessons, who cares if my hair is up in a ponytail for the 10th day in a row. Will Raegan grow up and think man I would have had more fun if my mom took 15 more minutes to straighten her hair? Or that she isn’t the perfect swimmer because we had 5 minutes less of swim lessons. No! I feel like I need to cherish life more. I feel like I need to love deeper. Today I would give anything to not be sitting at work, but to be home snuggling on the couch with the man that asked me to love him forever and with the little lady and made me a mom. I cannot hop on that train quick enough today.