Better

So one of my last posts was a rant to how hard things have been. Yeah, we're in a much better place this week. Switching to lactose free milk seems to have given us back our sweet girl. No more battles going to daddy, no more over the top ridiculous tantrums that make me want to crawl into a dark hole and not come out for days. Sleeping, yeah, still at where we were before, but we're working on it. 

Weeks like this past week make the hard ones melt away. They fill up your heart. Nothing all that special happened, it just was..... better, enjoyable. I felt like I knew what the hell I was doing again as a parent. 

I was just looking back at the pictures we took in January. Yeah, a total of 40. That may seem like a lot to some, but when I normally upload a minimum of 200 pictures a month so far (December was at 600, a baby's 1st Christmas and 1st Birthday will do that), it was very obvious to me that January was just tough. I told Raegan tonight that we can't relive January again, it may kill me if we have to. 

Track is in full swing, which I think is part of the reason everything had begun to feel so overwhelming. It's hard playing single parent three nights a week after a long work day and a good chunk of Saturday morning. Switching schedules is always extra hard on me, especially when the old routine was so good. I'm learning along the way. I've been prepping dinners the night before so there's less to be done when I walk in the door at 4:30 after work. I try to pack all I can in at night during the first part of the week when I have the energy. By Thursday I wiped. But I need to learn to take time for myself more often. Between playing full time marketing director, mommy, wife, cleaning lady and chief, it's easy to forget to take time for myself to do the things I enjoy, like writing, editing pictures, crafting it up and maybe just watching a movie guilt free for once. But when you only have 2 and a half hours a night to get anything around the house done it's hard not to feel guilt in doing "fun" things when your other to-do list is never ending (story of everyone's life I know). 

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. My mom, Raegan and I spent the better part of today at Ikea (post Raegan's first haircut, which I forgot to save some of her hair or take pictures!). We shopped Raegan out, 3 hour nap post shopping trip.