Back in Time

I am currently cleaning out my camera of the over 2,000 pictures I have taken since Raegan's birth. But before I delete them from my camera I want to make sure they are backed up both on my computer and onto my Shutterfly share page. Can't be too safe! By the way, if anyone ever wants my shutterfly site just let me know. There are A LOT of pictures that don't even make it on here that I upload.

Anyhow, back to the point Katie!

So the very first picture that came up on my camera was from the hospital. It just totally took me back to that day, well actually that Wednesday night I went into the hospital, through the next night before she made her arrival. It was less than 7 months ago, but it seems like an eternity has passed since then. I remember meeting Raegan for the first time, it was so surreal. I couldn't believe this sweet face was ours forever and I couldn't believe that I just made it out alive from childbirth. I think I have mentioned this to my mom before, I totally loved this girl from the moment I met her, but I didn't feel that totally head over heels, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me sort of love you see in the movies. I sort of relate it to the way I felt on my wedding day. I remember saying all day how I must been the numbest bride alive because I felt no emotion. But what I think actually happened was I had so much emotion I didn't know how to deal with it. I think meeting Raegan was sort of that same thing.  

But man oh man has time changed. I am obsessed with being a mom. It is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Is it challenging at times, yes. Can it be frustrating when you can't do what you want to do because a certain someone is crying, yes. Can it be hard on your relationship with your husband, I would be lying out of my butt if I said no. But as I look at this picture and think back to the day just before this picture was taken... man... I never want to know what life is like without this sweet face ever again.